Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Messy Life

My life is messy.

As I self-reflect, I realize just how ugly my issues are. Blood stains my hands. I’m covered in shame. The charades sometimes fool the people around me but I know the truth. Disgusting past. Horrific secrets. Ulterior motives. Double standards. Guilty conscience. Spotted. Tainted. Unworthy of love. Undeserving of breath. Messy life.

How does my Savior love me so? He is beautiful, I am ugly. He is strong, I’m a wuss. He is loving, I’m a jerk. How could He possibly pursue me with such a passionate heart?

My Savior sings to me – “You are all fair, my love, and there is no spot in you.” (Sgs 4:7)

He sees me robed in His righteousness and beauty. My Savior doesn’t see my ugliness. He doesn’t see my shame. I’m not guilty anymore. The spots are gone. My conscience is clean. My heart is washed in His forgiveness and acceptance. My sin will never exceed His grace.

May He remind you of His grace that covers your sin. May you realize that your heart has been made clean and whole. Let the words of His song sing to your spirit: “You are all fair, my love, and there is no spot in you..”